Blessed

Today I'm feeling how blessed I am to be involved in the world of adoption. I'm very open about being a birthmother and there are people who have received it in negative ways but for the most part it has given me the opportunity to meet and share with people I might never have known otherwise.

Today I talked to a woman who has adopted four children. Her story was amazing. She called me for advice, but I think I learned more from her strength than she learned from me. I do love every chance I get to help though. Whether it's through FSA, or going to group or just talking to people who are dealing with the adoption process.

It's a miracle.

FSA Conference

Last year I was able to go to the FSA (Families Supporting Adoption) Conference. It was SUCH an amazing experience. I was able to be surrounded by people who had been in my shoes and we were able to uplift and support each other.

This year I have been able to help plan it! I didn't start voulenteering until a couple of months ago, so I haven't done much but I've loved every minute of what I have been able to do.

SO looking forward to July 30th and 31st!

Miracle

As I sit here in the quiet of early morning and rock my beautiful 8 week old, I finally realize exactly what I sacrificed when placing Samantha into the arms of her parents.


Night feedings are quiet, peaceful times. I feed my child while she stares at me. She trusts me. When she's done I rock her, sometimes I study her face, her fingers, her toes. This amazing little miracle that God has given to me. I missed this with my first born.


Then I think of her Mother. I know that she spent hours with Samantha, just like this. Feeding her child, watching her child learn to trust her. Studying her baby and feeling blessed that God, and her birth mother, gave her that amazing little miracle.

These are things I wasn't ready for, that I wouldn't fully have appreciated at 19 years old. I am grateful for a Mother and Father who were ready, and who God blessed me and my baby girl with. Today, every day, I am grateful.

The Samantha Blog

In October of 2005 I placed a beautiful baby girl for adoption. This blog will be my ongoing story. I did it for the love of a child.